February 8th, 2006


(no subject)

i'm losing ground again & i've got that wierd feeling that i'm growing up. but not in a happy way. in that way where you know you've changed and that you can't go back to the way you were before.

i was telling my mom this week about how i think about time in people...[dumb example: the sammy fuks period] and i've found a new person. i'm being to really appreciate him. and i'm afraid that it's starting to turn into something more than that. & i don't want to like him because i'm afraid it's dangerous. there's just something about his sincerity. he's one of the only people that can tell me the truth. [you don't know who i'm talking about.]

all of my friends are unhappy and i wish i could help them.


ps i'm borrowing a new headjoint and its amazing but i'm not allowed to say anything else.